|Thursday, July 28th, 2016|
i haven't updated in a long time. i don't have anything to say, so this is rather pointless.
i think i may go to savannah today. but i am still undecided.
i really want to watch the dangerous lives of the alter boys since the other day when we rented dare devils vs. spiderman instead.
thats all for today.
|Friday, March 25th, 2016|
the saran wrapped manikan's grip my ankles.
the uncomfortable silence came friday night. when your mid-section slowly shrinks because for a moment the world pauses, staring at you. nothing. you are paralyzed but your mind races for the words that never come. the feeling when you first meet someone with nothing in common, that you know of. forced conversation. forced smiles and laughs and each breath is another forced action. I know you all to well, this uncomfortable silence is unsettling. i need to talk. i need to know my worries are only an illusion to how fucked the world really is. please, i am begging you. i need to talk.need. i hate when the words are uttered a new meaning is formed. what happened. where is this going. i dont contact because i am to afraid of that cold silence.
why do i bother writing in this, why do i bother reading this. i dont get anything out of it? huh, i am sorry.
|Wednesday, March 23rd, 2016|
|i am sorry.
i've been confused lately, but i think i've already lost.
ihope not. badtiming/that isall i am.right placeright time bad judgement.it could be no more perfect.i.hope____myattitude of sel.hasnt.fishness caused me to lose,to get what was deserved.please.ineedtotalk.
in desperate need ofa.hug. Current Mood: envious
|Tuesday, March 15th, 2016|
|Monday, February 8th, 2016|
why do my clothes taste like laundry detergent and smell like the laundry mat....what happened to that home washed smell?
I do not think I like this new situation....I WISH i could spell, and then I would wish for something new.and the cycle. continues.
|Thursday, February 4th, 2016|
|Week #3 day 24 (week #1 day 3)
my eyes are still swollen and I still have the three lumps on the side of my neck, "swollen glands"
I think that television and the computer completely support my non-time theory and so therefore I am "suppose" to throw them both away...but instead I will support them and write in my journal and watch The Fairly Odd Parents.
I think I am getting tired of not caring, but alas I don't care enough to start "caring"
haha...I wish I knew what I was trying to say.
OH GOODY....holographic meatloaf again!
mhh...coldplay on M2, can't wait to see them!
|Sunday, January 24th, 2016|
|The day is always too long...
The time passes quickly but the things accomplished never amount to the lost time. If we could only keep that "non-time" in a jar and have for when there is nothing else to do. or maybe that is what boredom is...a repeat of the most horrid Mr. Rodger's Neighborhood episode(some may say is that possible?...but let me tell you, IT IS!) what things do I do different everyday that I will remember forever and will be worth my "life"?...nothing, so what exactly is the point of even writing in here, I will look back on this, maybe, and go..what the hell Mae?!? but as of now I am not feeling what the hell , I am in fact feeling.. WHAT THE HELL!!!!!!! I am tired of playing this little game called life...I feel like I keep losing my turn, or either keep returning to start. Mae Middleton,I am sorry I have lost touch with you...but it will not be long and I will remember the track I am suppose to be on...this is just a phase that all started when I filled out the occupations booklet, this is my life and I have put it into someone else's hands...if only I could find that person so i could get it back.
.....and everything looked so bright tomorrow, but I cant live in the life of yesterday
|Tuesday, December 15th, 2015|
thanks justin for providing us with somewhere to stay and a ride all over wherever we went. haha
old pot smoking hippies are funny and so is kung pow....dont think I have watched so many saturday night lives in row before. fun fun.
didnt get to go christmas shopping, oh well I guess I can do that later.
|Tuesday, December 1st, 2015|
|Sunday, November 29th, 2015|
WOW....thanksgiving wasn't normal this year..had a GREAT night. WONDERFUL.thank you.
WOW....thanksgiving wasn't normal this year..had a GREAT night. WONDERFUL.thank you.
|Friday, November 20th, 2015|
this writer really has no idea.....I dont think i have said like and fuck so many times in one sentence. It sounds liek it could be interesting...maybe? we'll see.
Norma- A teenage girl who looks liek a tramp, slim, wiry, wary, brown-haired, intense, with a peircing in her left eyebrow and another one in her lower lip. A runaway, Norma has led a rough and troubled life: she's lived in an abonded building in San Fransico and her adobtive father is in prison for robing a Burger King....Blahh blah......more blah blah, too much to type...anyway you get the idea.
I dont really feel like doing it but I might as well give the audition a shot.
hmm....my day was to long, it feels like friday, too bad! Current Mood: headache
|Monday, November 16th, 2015|
|Tonight was fun...just got home...I am tired
I had fun. Embodyment was good. Scary mohawk stalker was NOT! thank you brian for saving me. stalkers are bad.
good-night, tomorrow 6:30 at the OLD el sombreaeraesraseraserase-o.
|Thursday, November 12th, 2015|
You've got the perfect disguise, and you're looking okay. From the bottom of the best to the worst, well what can I say? Cause you cocked your head to shoot me down and I don't give a damn about you or this town no more.
ohhh..where is my mind?
I thought everything would be okay. I didn't allow myself to feel because then I couldn't get hurt. oh what a perfect plan. the battle inside will never be defeated. can't you see? it wont be okay.
|Tuesday, November 10th, 2015|
|I want to be like everyone else, HAH
Yes, You're the perfect disguise!
1. What's your name?
2. Where did we meet?
3. Take a stab at my middle name:
4. How long have you known me?
5. Have I been known to have a drink on occasion?
6. When you first saw me what was your
7. My age?
9. Color hair?
10. Color eyes?
11. Do I have any siblings? How many?
12. Have you ever had a crush
13. What's one of my favorite things to do?
14. Do you remember one of the 1st things I
said to you?
15. What's my favorite type of music(or band)?
16. What is the best feature about me?
17. Am I shy or outgoing?
18. Would you say I am funny?
19. Do I have any special talents?
20. Would you consider me a friend?
21. Have you ever seen me cry?
22. If there were one good nickname for me what
would it be?
23. What do I love?
24. Would you give me a hug?
25. If you had to rate me on the scale of 1-10
what would I be?
26. If you could do anything with me what would
27. Describe me in 3 words:
28. If you could tell me anything what would it
29. What would i wear?
|Tuesday, November 3rd, 2015|
|some loves holds, some gets used
life is to short to wait...life is to long to be patient.
the only cure is to live, and then life is nor to short or to long and you don't have to wait for the day you die or be patient for the day you grow old. if only you knew how to live, you would see what it all means. how it is not worth all you make it out to be. tomorrow you will forget that person. so why waste your last breath, just breathe.
|Tuesday, October 27th, 2015|
|I said what I said, and you know what I mean ...
this weekend has been amazing. lets see...first off went hung with amber and her friends and ALEX!went to see poisen the well/thursday and this really cool band cursive and two other bands....great show! hung with justin till about 5...or 4 or who knows because everyones clock was different. and the weekend isnt over
I am off to savannah to watch jonh Waters speak!...man i am excited
|Saturday, October 24th, 2015|
Last night I had a lot of fun...although I didnt do much it was just nice to hang out with savanna and alicia....it's been awhile. Today me and Kat started un-controllably laughing in 3rd period and that was nice too.....I haven't laughed like that for no reason in a long time. Today has been a good day. I think I am finally getting settled back into my "normal" life. I am done with the movie and pretty much caught up with school. Altanta this weekend....
This has been an awsome year so far.....I think I dont really remember any of the others to compare it to
|Monday, October 5th, 2015|
I am super-mae, The super nija turtaL!
who has to clean her room :(
|Sunday, October 4th, 2015|
BEEEEENNNNNN*fake hard-core scream*
yes yes yes yes